elsewhereYou can find me here now. I am no longer writing here on medium, but you can subscribe to my newsletter at the link, where I write essays a…Oct 15, 2021Oct 15, 2021
Music Writer’s Exercise 2021For the third year in a row, I am participating in #MWE, an exercise where you listen to one new-to-you album every day in the month of…Feb 10, 20211Feb 10, 20211
on gratitudeGratitude normally comes easy. You can sit down and tick off a list of things you’re thankful for in under a minute. Family, friends, life…Nov 26, 20201Nov 26, 20201
Anxiety and depression are lonely afflictions.I’ve tried to explain my general anxiety disorder to people before, how it’s not just like being nervous about a specific event, but more…Nov 22, 2020Nov 22, 2020
WorthyDo for yourself, people tell me. Treat yourself well. Indulge every once in a while.Nov 12, 20202Nov 12, 20202
My family hates watching Jeopardy!7pm weeknights were always earmarked for Jeopardy! Even on nights when there was a Yankees or Islanders game scheduled for the same time…Nov 9, 2020Nov 9, 2020
no controlMy therapist is really fond of trying to get me to not worry about things I can’t control. I laugh sometimes because the entire foundation…Nov 2, 2020Nov 2, 2020
the return of the cryI was maybe ten, standing in the parking lot of a hospital with my cousins, waving to my aunt who was on the fifth floor supposedly waving…Oct 31, 20201Oct 31, 20201
the divorce of thingsIt was 2010 or so, a warm summer day, when an internet friend from a few states away backed into my driveway with her pickup. We loaded…Oct 27, 20201Oct 27, 20201
February 8, 2020.We gathered for this show knowing very little about the virus that was seeping into the news lately. It was something foreign, abstract…Oct 26, 2020Oct 26, 2020
end dateA small, laminated card, about the size of a playing card, sits on my table. I look at it, not sure what to do with it, as always happens…Oct 21, 20201Oct 21, 20201
how we mourn nowRight inside the funeral home, as soon as I walk into the foyer, there is a small sign.Oct 17, 2020Oct 17, 2020
Published intelling short storiesgirlI cross the street and she’s there, in front of the drug store, waiting for me. She knows I have to pick up my meds and she’s there like a…Oct 16, 2020Oct 16, 2020
if it makes you happyHow many times during this pandemic did I find myself curled up on my couch watching an episode of a tv show I’ve watched a hundred times…Oct 15, 20201Oct 15, 20201
we slowly shed everything beautiful lose the grip on all that is vibrant and wondrous watch the…all our dreams lie scattered in the grass waiting for the wind to pick them up carry them to places far from our outstretched hands…Oct 13, 20201Oct 13, 20201
putting it out thereMany, many years ago, suckered into doing NaNoWriMo by a well meaning friend, I first wrote about a character named Grant. He was a heavy…Oct 9, 2020Oct 9, 2020
goodbye to all thatGoodbye to eating in restaurants, to being seated at a table by an affable, unmasked host, to being waited upon and served a meal you…Oct 6, 2020Oct 6, 2020
situations tolerableMy first apartment was on the second floor of my cousin’s house. I moved in with my fiance after living at home until I was 25; I never…Oct 2, 2020Oct 2, 2020
I Keep ForgettingI didn’t willfully start out forgetting you. It was something that just happened, an occurrence that took place over time, little by…Sep 30, 2020Sep 30, 2020