A Meditation on Grief

Is it because the world outside my window is white with snow?

Linda A. Moran
Human Parts

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c. 2019, Linda Moran, faint statues in the snow

I didn’t expect a wave of grief this morning. But then, that’s what grief does…it ensnares you into a carefully concealed memory, triggered by a video of something unexpected. Simply scrolling through the phone this early morning to discover a video of 36-year-old Scott Hamilton at a world championship. I have no choice but to watch and remember the times Dean and I spent together watching skating, on television and in person.

Hamilton’s performance is amazing, even years later, almost the exact time we saw him perform across Lake Champlain in the Discover Stars On Ice Tour — at the community show performed as a thank you for the support of Lake Placid before the troupe hit the road for that year’s ice tour. Visiting Lake Placid for this show was like the history tours we loved to take: the original rink where the Olympic skaters performed, like Dick Button and Peggy Fleming, whom we had watched as kids. The Tower for the ski jumping. The memorabilia of all the skaters, medals, and shows.

So many memories of watching ice skating together, cheering our favorite performers over the years, especially Scott Hamilton, Brian Boitano, Elvis Stoiko, Kristi Yamaguchi, and Torville and Dean— each a memory of the two of us laughing and shouting together. There were…

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Linda A. Moran
Human Parts

Artist, Author, Activist; truth-telling in history; redefining myself as a widow for a new decade. lindamoran.org