I Think I Am Still Alive

Here is what will happen in the first year of the pandemic

Nina Szarka

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Woman holding a drink at a bar alone.
Photo: Erik Witsoe/EyeEm/Getty Images

It is March and I am standing behind the pine of the dive bar I work at holding a spray bottle full of sanitizer. I have cleaned everything I can think of that has ever been touched. The light switches. The doorknobs. The undersides of the stools. The skin of my hands is cracking from the frequency of antibacterial soap and…

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Nina Szarka

Apocalypse carnival mistress, essayist, and animated story maker.