Am I Straight? Am I Gay? I Don't Know What I Am
A journey just trying to find a place to fit in.
Six
My cousin told me she only likes girls. My parents say that she doesn’t, she’s just pretending. I think it’s weird.
My family and I are sitting at the dinner table eating our food, the TV is on in the background it drowns out the chewing and noises of forks hitting the plates.
I thought crosses my mind; I ask my parents if boys can like boys like they do girls. They don’t really know how to answer, shock spreads across their faces and half a moment passes. They say they can, Dad just doesn’t want to have to know about it. I take in the answer thinking for a moment, could that also mean.
Girls can be with girls?
In my bedroom I’m playing with my dolls, all are sharing a house together one girl doll has a boyfriend and the other has a girlfriend. Each couple sleeps in the same bed and they give each other kisses, like my parents do sometimes.
I hear the sound of my mother walking down the hallway, I suddenly feel like I’m doing something wrong and quickly move the girl dolls away from each other, so she doesn’t see.
Eleven
It’s the last year of primary school, I have my first crush on a tall boy with dark hair. It hits me unexpectedly…
