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I Love You 80%
What do you do when you meet someone great, but you simply don’t love them how you feel you should
After another failed situationship, I’m a little disheartened. But it’s not because it failed. It’s because of why it failed.
We met on the Fourth of July. We’d walk along the beach that evening with the occasional burst of fireworks cheering us on all along the way. As if the evening wasn’t auspicious enough, the ocean was beautifully accentuated by a milky track from the full moon reflecting across the water.
For the next year, we’d watch every full moon together on that beach. And when our one year anniversary came, we’d joke about how the whole country was setting off fireworks in celebration of our special day.
As beautiful as all that sounds, to my mind it’s a perfect metaphor for what was wrong in that relationship — or maybe just what’s wrong in me. Outwardly, everything was just how it should be, yet something quintessential was missing. I had all the pieces there, except my heart.
She’s smart, hardworking, responsible, sexy, tons of fun to be around, and seemed to really love me. Yet, I simply did not feel taken with her in return. I had everything but the depth of feeling that I was used to at that stage of a relationship.
