Not Wanting to Lose Him a Second Time
Loving someone who’s not part of your life is exhausting
While my partner and I may not always see eye to eye, we are best friends. On occasions, I have thought he is the only person I need in my life — apart from my kids.
Many couples would find a relationship such as ours suffocating. But it has worked for us. Maybe we’re compensating for lost time because, in retrospect, it’s hard to believe how challenging it was to just be together.
Rik and I knew each other over twenty-seven years ago and recognised a connection. Meeting him felt like the beginning of my journey. But it was obvious, if a taste of secure family life was on your radar, he wasn’t the type of guy to deliver.
We went our separate ways, and I had children with another. Although, I never forgot the bond that had existed between us. In certain respects, I was treading water, waiting. Then fate stepped in. I stumbled across him online by accident and we reconnected.
It became apparent that we didn’t want to lose each other a second time. We talked about a future together.
The problem was, I wanted to continue to supply a stable environment for my kids. I knew this would not happen if he were a part of my world. He understood and, after much heartache…
