This Is Us

The Affair I Didn’t Have

Instead of cheating, I decided to make myself into more of what I desired

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I’d been married eight years when Brian sat next to me at a writers’ workshop. I didn’t know his name was Brian then… I didn’t know him at all. Being new to the workshop, I’d taken my own seat in the circle of writers, and busied myself by reading through…