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The Hidden Pain of Being a Selfish Alcoholic at Christmas

I’m finally acknowledging the hurt I caused my loved ones

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CChristmas Eve was one of the biggest days of the year, not just personally or spiritually, but for our business. For 15 years, my wife and I were bread bakers and owned a neighborhood whole grain bakery. Holidays that brought families together around the dinner table…




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Matt Salis

Matt Salis

I live in Denver, Colorado, with my wife and four kids. I write and speak about addiction and recovery. Please follow my blog at

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