THIS IS US
The Pandemic Left Me This Creepy Baby
Of all the haunting remnants of the past year, the one I can’t shake is my daughter’s eerily real doll
We were falling deep into our pandemic winter, and after the better part of a year of fully online or hybrid school, my daughter’s noneducational hours had become dominated by additional screen time so that I could keep working. She transformed into a third-grader with a casual online “window shopping” habit and a growing obsession with Reborn Babies, strangely realistic, silicone baby dolls.
I wasn’t sure how I’d survived the better part of the year as a freelance writer in shutdown with a throbbing ball of stress growing and contracting somewhere over my heart, my nervous stomach. Our daughter would sweep into my home office and point on the iPad to images of tiny fingers crafted to include the most delicate wrinkles and tiny replica fingernails.
“Look at those eyelashes!” she’d swoon.
“Uh-huh,” I said, clicking around on my screen. “I need 20 more minutes, okay?”
“Oooh, this one! Mom, mom. Look. It sits up!” A second screen slid in between my eyes and my monitor, and I beheld a small, white, toddler-looking doll with red hair and pink cheeks, glassy, unblinking…
