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There Is Nothing We Can Do About
A Japanese philosophy has taught me about acceptance
Just last month, I lost interest in my future. My dream has been elusive since graduation. I hit rock bottom after losing my dad three years ago.
I’m utterly drained. I’ve given it my all. It’s even more frustrating because instead of making progress, I feel like I’m further from my goal. And on top of that, I still have to deal with the cost of my failure.
I don’t have the strength to start over and go through the long process again. I’m losing faith in the power of perseverance My quest for answers remains fruitless.
One of the biggest questions I’ve always had about myself is finally starting to make sense. Looking back, I remember constantly asking to go to the bathroom every hour in high school, not because I needed to — I was just bored out of my mind. That same feeling followed me into my work life, where I couldn’t stick with one company for more than a year.
I’ve also noticed when I get a craving for something, I can’t resist it, but once I satisfy it, I have this burst of energy to get things done. At the same time, I’ve realized I just can’t push myself to do things I dislike, no matter how hard I try. After taking several credible tests this year, the results — over 95% — point to ADHD. I…
