“When I was doing my best work as a cop, I was doing mediocre work as a therapist or a social worker.”

If it wasn’t clear already, the killing of Daniel Prude demonstrated that we need first-responders who can de-escalate situations with something other than violence. Does the person responding to a mental health crisis really need a gun? Or do they need something more intangible — and harder to acquire — like the ability to counsel people in psychological distress? In this anonymous essay about his experience in law enforcement, Officer A. Cab tells the truth about police training, state-sponsored violence, and what we really mean when we talk about “safety.”