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Crohns Disease

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Lived Through This

On Crohn’s disease, desirability, and internalized disableism

Alternating rows of toilet paper rolls and cardboard toilet paper tubes on a pink surface.
Alternating rows of toilet paper rolls and cardboard toilet paper tubes on a pink surface.

CN: internalized ableism/disablism (and much of it); gastrointestinal disease/bathroom talk

TW: emetophobia.

It’s 4:30 on a Thursday morning when I type this.

I am in the bathroom.

I have Crohn’s disease.

Crohn’s disease, if you’re unfamiliar, is a “bathroom disease.” This means, first and foremost, that I spend a lot of time in the bathroom. Like on my first day in my new home in Nashville, when I knelt on the new bath mat and laid my head against the cool porcelain of the tub as I spent hours throwing up while my roommate/childhood best friend and my boyfriend chatted…

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