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The New Year Isn’t a Fresh Start, and That’s Okay

Even when bad things happen, the past influences us for the better

Katy Friedman Miller
Human Parts
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7 min readJan 11, 2021

A lone woman walks with confidence up stairs coming out from dark tunnel into bright light.
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Time isn’t the main thing. It’s the only thing. —Miles Davis

Working around death and dying, I often feel different from other people—alone in a way. Very few people enjoy thinking about dying, disease, and the separation of this life from the “Let the Mystery Be,” as Iris DeMent describes it. Many people are intrigued but only in passing, as if I were a party trick. I understand the avoidance. It is a strange occupation to be with human beings for the express purpose of “helping” them die or, more often, helping their families help them die.

When I worked as a home hospice social worker, I was enamored with the HBO series Six Feet Under because, I think, when watching that show, I felt less alone. I felt that the characters — a family who owned and operated a mortuary — understood the way life and death walk side by side every moment of our lives. They shared that awareness with me, even though they were just characters on a TV show.

Seventeen years later (now a grief therapist working in private practice), I am watching the show again with my 15-year-old daughter. The last time I watched it was the early 2000s — I was nursing her older brother, and she herself was just a twinkle in my eye.

The first episode begins with the death of the family patriarch, Nathaniel Fisher Sr. — the owner of the mortuary — who is killed in a car accident. After his death, there are many scenes where he appears, interacts, influences, chides, guides, admonishes, and simply observes. He is dead — but I love how this illustrates the way people aren’t really in the past. They still impact us. We are still in relationship to them — even when their bodies are long buried. Even if we have no belief in life after death, it can’t be denied that there is some kind of life after death in that a person existed and they exert force on us in ways we are aware of and probably in ways we are not.

I’ve heard so much about leaving 2020 behind us. The terrible pandemic year in which we wore masks, in which businesses closed, in which everyone stayed home…

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Human Parts
Human Parts
Katy Friedman Miller
Katy Friedman Miller

Written by Katy Friedman Miller

I’m a grief therapist and former hospice social worker. Sharing stories from life, death, and work and where they all intersect. TEDx talk at www.ted.com

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Right on. Finally an essay that gives some substance and a reality check that we don't just totally move on after the year turns a new number. Thanks for writing this thoughtful piece.

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My desire for 2021 is not that we tell ourselves easy and hopeful fibs that the past and the bad times now sit helplessly by the side of the road as we speed away. My hope is that we wi...

Totally 💯💯. Thanks for sharing.😊

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Great read, Thank You!

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